I was going through some of my older stuff and came across that wolverine watercolor. I hadn't seen it in real life for so long- just here on my gallery once and a while, and didn't realize how much darker and clearer the colors are. It occured to me I didn't know how to alter the color levels until very recently, so I have given some of my older stuff new levels because my scanner dulls images.

I altered wolverine, whooping cranes, orca, ratha, ostrich gryphon, lazuli buntings, panda and kiatifa unicorn. I believe they are much truer to life now.

Two weeks without work or school- someone suggested to take an art class for something to do. So, I wandered into an art store and asked about their lessons. They give four lessons where you can only take one class a week and of course it's pretty expensive. Already turned off by this, the women asks me if there was some medium I wanted to learn and if I just wanted to 'play around' with different things. I've always considered art a play around type thing- trying to illustrate different concepts, sure, but how I go about it is mostly all play (I learn through experimentation). Of course I say I'd like to 'play around' and that's what I usually end up doing. Anyway, the aritst teaching the lessons pipes up and gives me a lecture on how you need a foundation before you can 'play' around creatively. He says it applies for life too, in fact anything and that houses need fondations before they can build up.
And I was like- dude, you don't even know me. If you want my $80.00 don't make me hate your guts.

He then adds he can help me learn how to sketch in my sketchbook.

And I left. xD

Okay, I'm finally going to admit it.
Thinking about doing anything more artistic then a doodle on my biology homework makes me anxious and agitated. I've been starting sketchbooks and then giving up on them because I feel my drawings aren't good enough. I feel I can't create anything because it just won't be appreciated by anyone.

It started with discounting creativity and being too busy with other things in my life, but it has come to the point I'm afraid to draw. It's ridiculous, I know. So now, I'm forcing myself to do it...

I've decided not to go back to school next semester for a couple reasons; 1) I'm not sure on what I'm doing there, and 2) I need to learn about life, not microbiology. So, I'm going traveling sometime after January and I will hopefully feel better about things in general. One thing I'm hoping to happen is I will regain and even gain more confidence. More confidence behind my artwork would be wonderful.

Until then I'll be working and drawing and resting.

Online Images
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Tags/Avatars
Personalized pixel art for use on message boards and the like. Final products are transparent gifs, generally under 200X200 pixels. [link]

Furcadia Portraits
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Single Port: $15 US (Remappable and Nonremappable)
Male, Female, Unspecified Set: $45 US
Please feel free to email me questions about price, payment methods and different portrait styles. Although I'm most comfortable doing realistic ports I'm open to trying something new.

Personal Pictures/Characters
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Line-Art: $10.00 US
Colored in PhotoShop: $20.00 US

Original Artwork
Artwork done through traditional means: watercolor, acrylic, colored pencil. Final products will be sent to you through the mail.

Prices vary. Email me if you’re interested.

(Note: I’ll be updating this on a regular basis.)

I’m sure no one around here really cares- so I admit I’m doing it for my own benefit. Anyway, I used to be creative and it has been a good two or three years since there’s been any evidence of that on here or any other of my galleries. Although I’ve never stopped producing art through the years it has been nothing I wanted to show. I guess it all comes down to priorities. I slipped off of art-mode last year.

Actually, I’ve been in a continuous state of discounting creativity for several years. I’m only now just realizing it. I mean sure I was just as creative as I could be in my contemporary art classes but there’s boundaries- not like in fantasy or surrealism where it can be a complete free-for-all. Now I really miss the freedom. I miss the days when I’d wonder, ‘should I color this gryphon’s feathers blue or pink?’ but it seems all too childish now.

Then again, most of my favorite artist’s are creative geniuses. That’s why I look up to them.

My goal is for my current trends to change. I’m going to submit some new art this summer because there is no reason why I can’t. I’m also going to get my website back up and maybe, if people show interest, I’ll be open to commissions and willing to sell my artwork.

Commissions are already open to those who want some of my pixelart. - - > [link]
And I’m seriously looking into making patches for Furcadia.

So, mock my words, there will be art. XD